Kaoru
smiled as she placed a tray of food before Enishi once again. She’d been coming
back for a month now, and Enishi had finally stopped crying when he ate her
food. She didn’t know weather he’d just gotten used to it or she’d actually
gotten better at cooking, Kaoru joked sardonically to herself. She knew full
well that her cooking wasn’t the best stuff on earth, but it wouldn’t kill Sano
and Yahiko to refrain from mentioning it. She frowned. At least Enishi didn’t
complain. She laughed. He likely would if he wasn’t sitting there frozen in
whatever time he happened to be.
Over the time she’d spent with him, no
more than three hours a day, she had slowly pieced together that he was
reliving the events of his sisters death, and that somehow he thought she was
laughing at him. She smiled painfully, that must be a hard thing to deal with.
She’d never had siblings and could only imagine what it would be like, but that
was bad enough on it own. She sighed and scooted over next to him, leaning
against the wall and stretching her legs out.
She hadn’t really found whatever it was
that she was looking for but she had a feeling Enishi had it. She leaned
against his shoulder. Taking liberties from a mentally disturbed person, Kaoru
chuckled to herself, now that’s not really fair. She sighed, if only Kenshin
would allow her such liberties.. sometimes she just needed a shoulder to lean
on, or hell even a hug every once and a while.
But Kenshin kept everything to himself. She stared off into space, almost
imitating Enishi, but without the empty look. The last time she’d really gotten
anything from him was when he was leaving for Kyoto. It had felt really good to
be surrounded by his arms.. but given the situation she hadn’t a chance to
enjoy it. She frowned. Did Kenshin really… she didn’t finish the sentence, not
wanting to know the answer. He had told her on Enishi’s Island that he was
coming to meet her.. she had thought it meant so much more, but it seemed to be
nothing more than.. well nothing.
She fell over onto Enishi’s lap and closed her eyes, wrapping her arms around
him. Even though she didn’t seem to be making any progress, Enishi’s presence
was comforting when her thoughts were troubling her, and he made an excellent
pillow, she smiled as she dozed off. Just for a little while, she thought to
herself, fading into an oblivious dream.
Enishi had been slowly realizing what was going on merely three days after
Kaoru had first come. It had taken a week before he was fully conscious, and he
had been watching her whenever she wasn’t looking, afraid to say anything
because he wasn’t sure of her motives. Maybe she was here to laugh at him too.
But his hope slowly grew as she kept coming back day after day, but now he had
a new reason to keep silent. He didn’t want her to leave. He’d never
known anyone to care so much about him, and although he thought his sister had,
in the end she threw him out carelessly for Kenshin. He winced. Kaoru was
likely in love with Kenshin too. He didn’t want to loose anything to Kenshin
again.. So he kept silent, enjoying the moments as they came.
He never dreamed she would get so close to him. After the first two weeks she
had started sitting by him, leaning up against the wall as she stared off into
the afternoon air. Her company was a comfort in a vast lonely despair that
threatened to consume him. Whenever she left in the evening he would stare
after her, glad that she had shown him her loneliness too. Granted it was
almost as if he wasn’t there, but he liked to think that she might do the same
thing if he was “well” again.
When she had first rested her head on his shoulder, he almost jumped. He had
restrained himself only twitching slightly. Luckily she hadn’t noticed. It was
almost torture to have her there and not do anything, feeling her soft hair
against his neck, and smelling her innocent unique scent. She smelled of cherry
blossoms and a faint hint of sweat, but it wasn’t overwhelming any kind of
added to her presence.
Then she laid down across his lap, today, it had almost been a month since she
had started coming. That was more than he could bear, but he held out
surprisingly well… at least until she had fallen asleep. Then he couldn’t help
himself.
As soon as she had settled into a peaceful sleep he pulled on the end of her
ribbon an freed her hair, running a hand through it and bringing a bit to his
face, breathing in the sweet scent of cherry blossoms and soap. He sighed and
let the hair filter through his fingers to fall across her face. He brushed the
hair aside and left his hand there.
At least for a little while, he told himself. Smiling down at her in her sleep
Kaoru woke up suddenly. It was dark. She bolted out of Enishi’s lap and looked
about guiltily. She hoped the others hadn’t come looking for her. She turned
red as she looked over at Enishi. There was no change. She sighed, not that she
expected any change. Then she spotted her ribbon lying across his lap where she
had lain. She reached a hand up to her hair. She hadn’t realized it was undone.
It must have fallen out while she was asleep.
She got up and stretched. Even though she hadn’t meant to sleep so long, she
had to admit that it was the best she’d ever slept. Kaoru was usually restless
in sleep and would often get up in the middle of the night. She smiled, like
the time she had decided to go to Rakuminmora. She still didn’t know what she
was looking for, but for this moment, it didn’t seem so important.
She packed up her bento box and turned to leave. But before she had taken a
step she paused a moment, turning around finally to crouch on her knees in
front of Enishi. She reached out with two hands and removed his glasses,
placing them atop her head as she looked at his face. She smiled, his
eyes were closed and his mouth relaxed into a slightly curved line. It was
closer to a frown but it was closer to a smile than she ever remembered seeing
him, other than when he was laughing insanely. She winced.
She turned his head up in her hands, not willing to go yet for some reason. She
stared at his face for almost five minutes before coming to a conclusion.
“You’re really very cute… Without your glasses” she said finally and then
gasped, as she hadn’t meant that to come out. She squinted her eyes and thrust
the glasses back on his face as her own turned a bright shade of red. She fell
backwards, flailing and shot onto her feet, running out.
She missed seeing Enishi’s eyes shoot open and stare at her in shock, the instant she had said those words. As she left his mouth twitched into a smile, finally expanding into a grin and followed by full laughter, that echoed into the night.